Monday, Monday!

Good Afternoon, guys and gals!  I'm a little late today - but better late then never!

OOOOHHHHH, how I wish it could be simple!  This weekend was hard!  My husband wanted to go out, yippy, but wanted yummy cheese burgers and fries!  OOOOKKKAAAYYYY, so I wanted cheese burgers and fries!  Dang it!  Why can't I stop myself?  Because.. . . . . .I want a real life.  Making real choices.  Living it!  So I had a cheese burger and fries!  My arteries didn't clog up and cause me to have a heart attack, but the stress of worrying about it could have!  I use to worry like that all the time.  "Well, we're going out!  What am I going to eat?"  "Everyone else gets to eat, but I can't!"  Blah, Blah, Blah!  Enough, stop the madness!  Eat the damn cookie and buy the shoes, that's what I would have put on the cover if I were Joyce Meyers!

It's amazing how life can get so confusing, so out of wack!  The simple pleasures of this life are there to make the days sweeter, celebrations merrier, not to break our spirit.  God wants us to have peace, joy, and love!  He wants us to live full and happy lives.   So all in moderation, that is the key!  When I realize that food isn't it, that my size isn't it, that the way the world views me isn't it, then I will have peace!  Winning this battle is my first priority and I can do it if I rely on God!

I guess the first and most important step for me as well as all of you who are using and abusing substances is to realize how loved we are by our Father.  To know what we mean to Him.  We were given these bodies to full fill God's plan here on earth.  Pretty simple.  He gave us everything we need to make it.  We have a certain look about us that will or has attracted us to our spouses so that we can produce families and make homes.  We were given special, one of a kind gifts that we could use to help others and glorify God.  He gave us instruction on how to live, to defeat the enemy.  And He gave us love, mercy, kindness, grace, and forgiveness, knowing that we would all fall short.  That's pretty outstanding!  So where's the problem? 

The problem is we care to much about the outside world, or at least I have!  My mom used to say terrible things about herself.  She would never take a compliment.  She would always say how ugly she was, how stupid she was, how useless she was.  Others would tell me that I looked so much like my mom - yikes, not good!  I mean, if she was all these things then that meant I was also!  Thank goodness I know differently now!  Already feeling like I was different due to my sexual abuse, these sort of things stuck to me like glue!  I then of course was insecure, and I acted like it!  I would think to myself "why are these people treating me so differently?"  It was because I was acting so differently!  That was yesterday.  Today I have God with me and I can choose to act compassionately, friendly, and lovingly - even when others don't!  Why?  Because I have a choice!!!!!

The choice that I have chosen is to live in God's light!  I want to be healthy, energized, ready to take care of my family and share with my friends.  And I want my children to grow up being secure in God's love for them!  Because they are special, unique, beautiful, and so precious to God.  You are too! 

That cheeseburger was good!  And the laughs and fun that I had with my husband was even better!  So long, old me. I'm living my life not loathing it!  My body is a temple and I'm taking care of it!  I'm going to keep on working on this master piece for as long as I live!

Well, keep up the good fight, my friends!  We will get there!

Blessings ~ Becca