Good morning to all my brothers and sisters in Christ!
So how are we all feeling today? I hope that everyone has been having success in their new life reconstruction! I have been having good days and bad! Mostly good due to the fact that I put my hope and faith in God and not into myself or others. It really takes the pressure off!
Today, I am focusing on breathing, living in the moment, taking in all of God's beauty around me. Through this rewiring of my brain and then redoing my thinking processes, I have still forgotten to stop and smell the roses! Life can continue to pull us away from our peace so we need to stay grounded in the Word for support.
Oh how time flies! As I look back on the short lives of my children and how fast they have grown, it makes me sad to think about all the time I have wasted worrying about weight and food. And it's different for everyone. Your focus might be on pleasing others. Or money in the bank. Running every day like your neighbor or friend. Or thinking that because someone else is doing this: hobbies, running, extra jobs, college, etc. that I need to be doing that also. Being inspired is one thing. But the timing has to be right for YOU! God's plan for you is different then His plan for me. I need to stay in the moment with Him! He knows what I need and what I am capable of doing! He wants me to be happy and successful, but not as a carbon copy of someone else! We do need to strive to be better, to be the best we can be! But keeping our life's work focused on showing our love for God and others, that is where the problem lies. Life keeps pulling us in all sorts of different directions, away from our true purpose - learning, hoping, loving, trusting and having faith in God! So I need to read my Bible! Pray for God's guidance! And learn to say "NO!"
So now about health and applying that knowledge of staying in the moment with God to our current situation!
My temple of doom perception is a change'n! How about you? I see a different and beautiful shell that is made strong enough to weather any of life's seasons! I see myself as a shell that is uniquely made just as a shell from the sea! My shell is different than yours. It protects my heart, soul and spirit. I must remember that caring for my shell is showing love for God. Caring for my shell will heal my insecurities and help me to care for others. We can't love others or care for them if we don't first do this for ourselves! We can't share God's love with others, if we don't except God's love, unconditional love for us!
So today, knowing that I am important, not just to my family and friends. Not just for cleaning my house or exercising. But to God and my purpose in the world, I am going to love myself and take care of this temple! I want others to see that I'm serious about having the Good Lord's love flow through me! I'm going to show love for myself by my actions not just my words. I'm going to focus on the moments of my day. Take time to breath, taking time to laugh, taking time to smile at a grumpy stranger, I'm going to do better! And then tomorrow I'm going to wake up and do better than I did today!
Finding purpose is a good thing! Finding that our purpose is living for God makes things so much easier to accomplish! Takes the fear out of needing acceptance from others. Takes the worry out of "what to do?" I pray that you all have peace today, and everyday for that matter. But focusing on today, I hope you have peace. I hope you look in the mirror and tell yourself that "I am good!"
Keep up the good fight, my friends! For yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift! Accept your present!!
Love to you all and blessings ~ Becca
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Temple of Doom part 2
Good morning all my brothers and sisters in Christ! It is a beautiful fallish yet wintery day! A few snowflakes, a hot cup of coffee, a good book(Bible), life is good!
Well, yesterday was awful!!! Awful! Awful! I'm usually very optimistic but yesterday was, WOW! But today is looking good! And I can relay to you that all of this praying, reading, and learning has really helped my attitude when the bad stuff happens. What a difference a difference can make!
So how are you! Can you believe that we're on the edge of the holiday season! Man, I'm so excited! I can't wait to smell cookies baking and see Christmas lights out and on! It wasn't always a merry occasion, though.
I wanted so much to love the holidays. To experience all the joys and fun. But unfortunately, after trying so hard to not eat cookies and holiday desserts, I would. And alot of them. Then feel terrible inside and out. And I would try so hard to stay in the moment if we were invited to Christmas parties and at school parties. I wanted it to be about friends and family. But just like clock work, I would find myself at the dessert table eating. Eating and talking. Eating and laughing. But all the time eating. It was a safe place, if you can believe that. And then, feel awful inside and out again. And again, and again. . . .
The things that are supposed to make gatherings fun can be our(my) worst enemy! So back to the temple of doom thingy.
There was a time when I hated myself. Everything about myself. From a youngster. I saw how the teachers and other kids acted toward the cute popular kids. I even noticed how parents, my parents acted toward those cute kids! And remember that kid that molested me. He was always so nice to the cool and cute girls. I hated that my hair wasn't long and that my mom didn't try new things with my hair. I hated her hair also. She was so not in style. I hated how I dressed and the clothes my mom would buy. They were not what was popular. Then as I got older I hated my body. I hated my period. I hated getting old. And, let me tell ya, God does answer prayers and you do need to think about what your praying.
I was the first girl to get hippy. You know, my figure was a changen! I, being extremely insecure due to previous situations, hated it! I was one of the first girls to need a bra and I remember praying at night that God would not let, you know, them grow any more!!! Yes, Virginia, He answers prayers. Thanks God! As I entered high school and then college I was totally stuck on what I saw in magazines and on TV. I mean stuck! I was and could not make myself that way no matter how hard I tried. I hated it.
Then I had babies and looked at the pregnant women in pictures and on shows and they were so beautiful and cute. I was fat. I loved having a baby inside me. But I hated that my ankles were not small, thin, and cute in my flats! I felt like a beached whale surrounded by beautiful angelic women who gracefully floated by with their cute little tummies and their oh so cute clothes. Awe! Oh, I hated myself. Why would anyone love me? I had nothing with "self" in it! Don't get me wrong I loved being pregnant, just not my body! I had a temple of doom.
I wish I knew then what I know now! I am beautiful and so are you! My body is not perfect. But it is perfectly made by God. I'm able to care for my children and my husband. I'm able to help and love others. I am even able to be loved.
So many of our life expectations revolve around these insignificant ideals. So how do I break through this?
I stopped watching TV for the most part. I read a lot. I read the Bible, Joyce Meyers, health books, that kind of stuff. I have started noticing how my body feels rather then what it looks like. Instead of worrying about what I'm going to wear, oh my, I dream of hobbies that I could probably dabble in. I make myself think about fun stuff. Good stuff. And I pray. I have to rewire my brain. It is possible. So this body, not so much the temple of doom any more. It's a work in progress. It will require up keep for the rest of my life, inside and out. My heart, soul and spirit will require constant attention. I am in the process of turning all of my life over to God. I can't think of a better way of living my life.
So peace to all of you! Have a great day! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!
Blessings ~ Becca
Well, yesterday was awful!!! Awful! Awful! I'm usually very optimistic but yesterday was, WOW! But today is looking good! And I can relay to you that all of this praying, reading, and learning has really helped my attitude when the bad stuff happens. What a difference a difference can make!
So how are you! Can you believe that we're on the edge of the holiday season! Man, I'm so excited! I can't wait to smell cookies baking and see Christmas lights out and on! It wasn't always a merry occasion, though.
I wanted so much to love the holidays. To experience all the joys and fun. But unfortunately, after trying so hard to not eat cookies and holiday desserts, I would. And alot of them. Then feel terrible inside and out. And I would try so hard to stay in the moment if we were invited to Christmas parties and at school parties. I wanted it to be about friends and family. But just like clock work, I would find myself at the dessert table eating. Eating and talking. Eating and laughing. But all the time eating. It was a safe place, if you can believe that. And then, feel awful inside and out again. And again, and again. . . .
The things that are supposed to make gatherings fun can be our(my) worst enemy! So back to the temple of doom thingy.
There was a time when I hated myself. Everything about myself. From a youngster. I saw how the teachers and other kids acted toward the cute popular kids. I even noticed how parents, my parents acted toward those cute kids! And remember that kid that molested me. He was always so nice to the cool and cute girls. I hated that my hair wasn't long and that my mom didn't try new things with my hair. I hated her hair also. She was so not in style. I hated how I dressed and the clothes my mom would buy. They were not what was popular. Then as I got older I hated my body. I hated my period. I hated getting old. And, let me tell ya, God does answer prayers and you do need to think about what your praying.
I was the first girl to get hippy. You know, my figure was a changen! I, being extremely insecure due to previous situations, hated it! I was one of the first girls to need a bra and I remember praying at night that God would not let, you know, them grow any more!!! Yes, Virginia, He answers prayers. Thanks God! As I entered high school and then college I was totally stuck on what I saw in magazines and on TV. I mean stuck! I was and could not make myself that way no matter how hard I tried. I hated it.
Then I had babies and looked at the pregnant women in pictures and on shows and they were so beautiful and cute. I was fat. I loved having a baby inside me. But I hated that my ankles were not small, thin, and cute in my flats! I felt like a beached whale surrounded by beautiful angelic women who gracefully floated by with their cute little tummies and their oh so cute clothes. Awe! Oh, I hated myself. Why would anyone love me? I had nothing with "self" in it! Don't get me wrong I loved being pregnant, just not my body! I had a temple of doom.
I wish I knew then what I know now! I am beautiful and so are you! My body is not perfect. But it is perfectly made by God. I'm able to care for my children and my husband. I'm able to help and love others. I am even able to be loved.
So many of our life expectations revolve around these insignificant ideals. So how do I break through this?
I stopped watching TV for the most part. I read a lot. I read the Bible, Joyce Meyers, health books, that kind of stuff. I have started noticing how my body feels rather then what it looks like. Instead of worrying about what I'm going to wear, oh my, I dream of hobbies that I could probably dabble in. I make myself think about fun stuff. Good stuff. And I pray. I have to rewire my brain. It is possible. So this body, not so much the temple of doom any more. It's a work in progress. It will require up keep for the rest of my life, inside and out. My heart, soul and spirit will require constant attention. I am in the process of turning all of my life over to God. I can't think of a better way of living my life.
So peace to all of you! Have a great day! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!
Blessings ~ Becca
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
The Temple of Doom?
Good morning to all my brothers and sisters in Christ!
This week I am focusing on my body as a temple! 1 Corinthians 6:19 "Do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit Who lives within you, Whom you have received from God? You are not your own.
Wow! My body is not mine! I'm just using it! It was also bought and paid for by the blood of Jesus Christ! My body is not mine!
That puts things into perspective for me. How would I treat something that I had borrowed from a friend? Well, I would do my best to take care of it! Why? Because I want my friend to know through how I treat their stuff how I feel about them. That I care about them. That their friendship is important to me. That I respect them. That I would be scared if they were to get upset with me for not taking care of something that was theirs. . . .. . . . . Hmmmmmm. And then lose them as a friend.
Why is it so easy for us to hurt God! Is it because we can't see the disappointment on His face? Is it because we don't have to live with Him physically? Is it because we have been taught that He loves us and will forgive us no matter what? I don't want to live like that any more. God is more important to me than any thing here on earth. So I need to show Him that in everything I do! Including how I take care of my body!
My body is the temple for my spirit and soul; it is the house they dwell in while on this earth. The best way that I can take care of my spirit and soul is to take care of this body. This body is what everyone sees. This body gets me from point A to point B. This body is what God's love can come through in order to touch others. I need to be my best and so do you!
It's more than a weight issue or a style issue. It's about fighting the good fight. Being able to be all that God wants us to be. If we're run down, tired, unable to keep commitments then we have a problem. We are not being all that we can be. Not only are we not living up to our full potiential but we are letting others down. I have been given gifts from the Heavenly Father that He wants me to use to spread His love and make the world a better place. If I can't use those gifts because I get to winded walking, I'm to tired and need a nap due to all the junk food my body has been consuming, or because my self-esteem is shot, then every one loses out.
Eat right! Drink your milk! Eat that fruit and those veggies! NO MORE SUGAR! At least for a couple of days! And stay on track! Eat chocolate twice a week! Love your neighbor as the Lord loves you! Live your life like tomorrow is your last day! Show God that you care! Be responsible! Move your butt! Enjoy the beauty all around! And look at the beauty in your mirror! Show God that you care!
We can do this! It's about living! Just do it!
Peace to all of you! May the good Lord bless and keep you! And have a great day, beautiful!
Blessings ~ Becca
This week I am focusing on my body as a temple! 1 Corinthians 6:19 "Do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit Who lives within you, Whom you have received from God? You are not your own.
Wow! My body is not mine! I'm just using it! It was also bought and paid for by the blood of Jesus Christ! My body is not mine!
That puts things into perspective for me. How would I treat something that I had borrowed from a friend? Well, I would do my best to take care of it! Why? Because I want my friend to know through how I treat their stuff how I feel about them. That I care about them. That their friendship is important to me. That I respect them. That I would be scared if they were to get upset with me for not taking care of something that was theirs. . . .. . . . . Hmmmmmm. And then lose them as a friend.
Why is it so easy for us to hurt God! Is it because we can't see the disappointment on His face? Is it because we don't have to live with Him physically? Is it because we have been taught that He loves us and will forgive us no matter what? I don't want to live like that any more. God is more important to me than any thing here on earth. So I need to show Him that in everything I do! Including how I take care of my body!
My body is the temple for my spirit and soul; it is the house they dwell in while on this earth. The best way that I can take care of my spirit and soul is to take care of this body. This body is what everyone sees. This body gets me from point A to point B. This body is what God's love can come through in order to touch others. I need to be my best and so do you!
It's more than a weight issue or a style issue. It's about fighting the good fight. Being able to be all that God wants us to be. If we're run down, tired, unable to keep commitments then we have a problem. We are not being all that we can be. Not only are we not living up to our full potiential but we are letting others down. I have been given gifts from the Heavenly Father that He wants me to use to spread His love and make the world a better place. If I can't use those gifts because I get to winded walking, I'm to tired and need a nap due to all the junk food my body has been consuming, or because my self-esteem is shot, then every one loses out.
Eat right! Drink your milk! Eat that fruit and those veggies! NO MORE SUGAR! At least for a couple of days! And stay on track! Eat chocolate twice a week! Love your neighbor as the Lord loves you! Live your life like tomorrow is your last day! Show God that you care! Be responsible! Move your butt! Enjoy the beauty all around! And look at the beauty in your mirror! Show God that you care!
We can do this! It's about living! Just do it!
Peace to all of you! May the good Lord bless and keep you! And have a great day, beautiful!
Blessings ~ Becca
Monday, November 8, 2010
Monday, Monday!
Good Afternoon, guys and gals! I'm a little late today - but better late then never!
OOOOHHHHH, how I wish it could be simple! This weekend was hard! My husband wanted to go out, yippy, but wanted yummy cheese burgers and fries! OOOOKKKAAAYYYY, so I wanted cheese burgers and fries! Dang it! Why can't I stop myself? Because.. . . . . .I want a real life. Making real choices. Living it! So I had a cheese burger and fries! My arteries didn't clog up and cause me to have a heart attack, but the stress of worrying about it could have! I use to worry like that all the time. "Well, we're going out! What am I going to eat?" "Everyone else gets to eat, but I can't!" Blah, Blah, Blah! Enough, stop the madness! Eat the damn cookie and buy the shoes, that's what I would have put on the cover if I were Joyce Meyers!
It's amazing how life can get so confusing, so out of wack! The simple pleasures of this life are there to make the days sweeter, celebrations merrier, not to break our spirit. God wants us to have peace, joy, and love! He wants us to live full and happy lives. So all in moderation, that is the key! When I realize that food isn't it, that my size isn't it, that the way the world views me isn't it, then I will have peace! Winning this battle is my first priority and I can do it if I rely on God!
I guess the first and most important step for me as well as all of you who are using and abusing substances is to realize how loved we are by our Father. To know what we mean to Him. We were given these bodies to full fill God's plan here on earth. Pretty simple. He gave us everything we need to make it. We have a certain look about us that will or has attracted us to our spouses so that we can produce families and make homes. We were given special, one of a kind gifts that we could use to help others and glorify God. He gave us instruction on how to live, to defeat the enemy. And He gave us love, mercy, kindness, grace, and forgiveness, knowing that we would all fall short. That's pretty outstanding! So where's the problem?
The problem is we care to much about the outside world, or at least I have! My mom used to say terrible things about herself. She would never take a compliment. She would always say how ugly she was, how stupid she was, how useless she was. Others would tell me that I looked so much like my mom - yikes, not good! I mean, if she was all these things then that meant I was also! Thank goodness I know differently now! Already feeling like I was different due to my sexual abuse, these sort of things stuck to me like glue! I then of course was insecure, and I acted like it! I would think to myself "why are these people treating me so differently?" It was because I was acting so differently! That was yesterday. Today I have God with me and I can choose to act compassionately, friendly, and lovingly - even when others don't! Why? Because I have a choice!!!!!
The choice that I have chosen is to live in God's light! I want to be healthy, energized, ready to take care of my family and share with my friends. And I want my children to grow up being secure in God's love for them! Because they are special, unique, beautiful, and so precious to God. You are too!
That cheeseburger was good! And the laughs and fun that I had with my husband was even better! So long, old me. I'm living my life not loathing it! My body is a temple and I'm taking care of it! I'm going to keep on working on this master piece for as long as I live!
Well, keep up the good fight, my friends! We will get there!
Blessings ~ Becca
OOOOHHHHH, how I wish it could be simple! This weekend was hard! My husband wanted to go out, yippy, but wanted yummy cheese burgers and fries! OOOOKKKAAAYYYY, so I wanted cheese burgers and fries! Dang it! Why can't I stop myself? Because.. . . . . .I want a real life. Making real choices. Living it! So I had a cheese burger and fries! My arteries didn't clog up and cause me to have a heart attack, but the stress of worrying about it could have! I use to worry like that all the time. "Well, we're going out! What am I going to eat?" "Everyone else gets to eat, but I can't!" Blah, Blah, Blah! Enough, stop the madness! Eat the damn cookie and buy the shoes, that's what I would have put on the cover if I were Joyce Meyers!
It's amazing how life can get so confusing, so out of wack! The simple pleasures of this life are there to make the days sweeter, celebrations merrier, not to break our spirit. God wants us to have peace, joy, and love! He wants us to live full and happy lives. So all in moderation, that is the key! When I realize that food isn't it, that my size isn't it, that the way the world views me isn't it, then I will have peace! Winning this battle is my first priority and I can do it if I rely on God!
I guess the first and most important step for me as well as all of you who are using and abusing substances is to realize how loved we are by our Father. To know what we mean to Him. We were given these bodies to full fill God's plan here on earth. Pretty simple. He gave us everything we need to make it. We have a certain look about us that will or has attracted us to our spouses so that we can produce families and make homes. We were given special, one of a kind gifts that we could use to help others and glorify God. He gave us instruction on how to live, to defeat the enemy. And He gave us love, mercy, kindness, grace, and forgiveness, knowing that we would all fall short. That's pretty outstanding! So where's the problem?
The problem is we care to much about the outside world, or at least I have! My mom used to say terrible things about herself. She would never take a compliment. She would always say how ugly she was, how stupid she was, how useless she was. Others would tell me that I looked so much like my mom - yikes, not good! I mean, if she was all these things then that meant I was also! Thank goodness I know differently now! Already feeling like I was different due to my sexual abuse, these sort of things stuck to me like glue! I then of course was insecure, and I acted like it! I would think to myself "why are these people treating me so differently?" It was because I was acting so differently! That was yesterday. Today I have God with me and I can choose to act compassionately, friendly, and lovingly - even when others don't! Why? Because I have a choice!!!!!
The choice that I have chosen is to live in God's light! I want to be healthy, energized, ready to take care of my family and share with my friends. And I want my children to grow up being secure in God's love for them! Because they are special, unique, beautiful, and so precious to God. You are too!
That cheeseburger was good! And the laughs and fun that I had with my husband was even better! So long, old me. I'm living my life not loathing it! My body is a temple and I'm taking care of it! I'm going to keep on working on this master piece for as long as I live!
Well, keep up the good fight, my friends! We will get there!
Blessings ~ Becca
Friday, November 5, 2010
Day 10 - Oh the insanity!
Good morning to all my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! IT'S FRIDAY!
How are you all feeling? Are you stressed or have you been able to find rest in the love that Jesus has for you? I hope you have found peace with yourself and with those surrounding you! These past few days have been amazing! I've actually had to follow through with the advice I've been posting! And man what a difference a difference can make! There have been moments of insanity, but through talking with you all and knowing that I'm not alone has helped. I hope you have been reassured also! God loves you!
Today for my devotion I read the story about Jesus healing the demon-possessed man. It represents to me my internal bondage. I'll share a little of that chapter with you. But I encourage you to read it on your own. It's from the book of Mark 5:1-13. Here we go: Jesus helped a man who was acting insanely. "This man lived among the burial caves and could no longer be restrained, even with a chain(my eating disorder and fighting it on my own). Whenever he was put into chains and shackles - as he often was- he snapped the chains from his wrists and smashed the shackles. No one was strong enough to subdue him(nothing I could come up with on my own could help. I continued to fall back into the trap of binging and purging, and then hating myself). Day and night he wandered among the burial caves and in the hills, howling and cutting himself with sharp stones(my eating disorder had me isolating myself from everyone. I went through rages thinking that this life was unfair, people didn't treat me like I wanted to be treated. I then would feel bad about my fits and would feel ashamed, then eat. . . .. )." Jesus went into the graveyard and assessed the situation. He dealt with the forces of darkness that were afflicting the man and restored him to sanity. He then sent him home to his friends to tell them what God had done for him. (Here I am!)
We may have gone so far into our addictive behaviors that we have broken all restraints. We struggle to be free from the control of society and even loved ones, only to discover that our bondage doesn't come from the outside world. All hope seems lost, but where there is still life, there is still hope. God can touch our insanity and restore us to sanity.
Only God has the power to change us. He is so amazing! Unfortunately, I have to do the work! I have to fight to keep God first in my life. And it can be damn hard! My insecurities pop out of no where, and if I'm not fast enough to squash them, they can instantly take over. So as part of my recovery I am making new habits of singing songs that praise God over and over, even if I don't know the whole song. I am making the habit to read my bible, read my God messages, anything that has to do with God's love first thing in the morning and then several times through out the day. Something as small as saying "God is so amazing" over and over again can really change my attitude when things get rough. I have to do the work!
And also, it's scary for me to admit this, but understanding that when I go ahead and do the things I know God doesn't want me to do, I'm sinning! Yikes, it was better when I was ignorant, then I felt like I was getting away with it! Just kidding! I wouldn't go back to those days for anything. But God knows that it will be hard and so he has promised to help us and take care of us. We must keep fighting the good fight! It will get better, in fact, it will be great!
I encourage you to read your bible. I encourage you to put God first. I'm telling you, you wont regret it!
Noth'in but love for you all! Have a great Friday! And may the Good Lord bless and keep you!
Blessings ~ Becca
How are you all feeling? Are you stressed or have you been able to find rest in the love that Jesus has for you? I hope you have found peace with yourself and with those surrounding you! These past few days have been amazing! I've actually had to follow through with the advice I've been posting! And man what a difference a difference can make! There have been moments of insanity, but through talking with you all and knowing that I'm not alone has helped. I hope you have been reassured also! God loves you!
Today for my devotion I read the story about Jesus healing the demon-possessed man. It represents to me my internal bondage. I'll share a little of that chapter with you. But I encourage you to read it on your own. It's from the book of Mark 5:1-13. Here we go: Jesus helped a man who was acting insanely. "This man lived among the burial caves and could no longer be restrained, even with a chain(my eating disorder and fighting it on my own). Whenever he was put into chains and shackles - as he often was- he snapped the chains from his wrists and smashed the shackles. No one was strong enough to subdue him(nothing I could come up with on my own could help. I continued to fall back into the trap of binging and purging, and then hating myself). Day and night he wandered among the burial caves and in the hills, howling and cutting himself with sharp stones(my eating disorder had me isolating myself from everyone. I went through rages thinking that this life was unfair, people didn't treat me like I wanted to be treated. I then would feel bad about my fits and would feel ashamed, then eat. . . .. )." Jesus went into the graveyard and assessed the situation. He dealt with the forces of darkness that were afflicting the man and restored him to sanity. He then sent him home to his friends to tell them what God had done for him. (Here I am!)
We may have gone so far into our addictive behaviors that we have broken all restraints. We struggle to be free from the control of society and even loved ones, only to discover that our bondage doesn't come from the outside world. All hope seems lost, but where there is still life, there is still hope. God can touch our insanity and restore us to sanity.
Only God has the power to change us. He is so amazing! Unfortunately, I have to do the work! I have to fight to keep God first in my life. And it can be damn hard! My insecurities pop out of no where, and if I'm not fast enough to squash them, they can instantly take over. So as part of my recovery I am making new habits of singing songs that praise God over and over, even if I don't know the whole song. I am making the habit to read my bible, read my God messages, anything that has to do with God's love first thing in the morning and then several times through out the day. Something as small as saying "God is so amazing" over and over again can really change my attitude when things get rough. I have to do the work!
And also, it's scary for me to admit this, but understanding that when I go ahead and do the things I know God doesn't want me to do, I'm sinning! Yikes, it was better when I was ignorant, then I felt like I was getting away with it! Just kidding! I wouldn't go back to those days for anything. But God knows that it will be hard and so he has promised to help us and take care of us. We must keep fighting the good fight! It will get better, in fact, it will be great!
I encourage you to read your bible. I encourage you to put God first. I'm telling you, you wont regret it!
Noth'in but love for you all! Have a great Friday! And may the Good Lord bless and keep you!
Blessings ~ Becca
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Day 9 Is it sinking in?
Good morning to all my Brothers and Sisters in Christ!
Man, I feel good this morning! Today is going to be a great day! Hope yours is also!
Well, that's the question. Is it sinking in? Yes! I'm on my way to making oh so healthy and loving habits and rewiring my brain! I'm thinking about what I eat and serve. I'm thinking about what I say and feel. And I KNOW that without God I am nothing!!!!!
What a relief! To finally understand my place! I'm here on this planet to love, be loving, to share His love with others, to live in His love for me! I can be mindful, but don't have to figure everything out. I can rest spiritually in Him and know that everything will be great! God has given me a new perspective. I now can tell the difference between wants and needs.
I, like many of you, am on a very tight budget. And I haven't done that well with sticking with it here lately. But now that I am in a new state of mind, I realize that what I have been finding importance in, is really not that important! I see what I have! My needs and my families needs are met! I really don't need anything! And that may seem like I'm just going through this new Christian high, but I'm serious, I have everything! When you get to that point, life is peaceful. I feel like I can pursue all the things God has placed on my heart and not worry about if I'll get paid!
I realize now that parties are more then food traps! They are wonderful moments of laughs, sharing, stories, etc. Holidays are more than "Oh the food is so good, I have to have it!" "So and so is going to be way prettier and thinner than me and will talk about me behind my back!" It's so much more. Boy, I was really insecure! Those were my actual thought for a long time! Also, how selfish! To only think about "me!" I sure did miss a lot.
With God, I am whole! With God, there is no need to have one up on anyone. With God, there is no reason to hide, to feel inferior, to worry about what others think! With God, we are safe, satisfied, alive, living!
Yes Virginia! There is a better life out there and it starts and ends with God!
I now realize that losing weight and being healthy is more than the calories we eat, the exercises we do, the mistakes we make. It's about being really satisfied! Which can come from only one place ~ THANK YOU JESUS!
So I'm following the guidelines that I posted a few days ago. I'm making it simple. I'm going to be responsible. And you can too!
God loves us so much that He gave His only begotten Son so that we my have everlasting life! Man, I need to read that again!! He loves me, all my faults and thoughts and failures! He's looking at my future not my behind, I mean past!! He can see what I can't see, so I will trust Him and have faith!
Today is going to be a great day! Love yourself and let God's love fill you and flow through you to others!
Blessings to you my friends!
Becca
Man, I feel good this morning! Today is going to be a great day! Hope yours is also!
Well, that's the question. Is it sinking in? Yes! I'm on my way to making oh so healthy and loving habits and rewiring my brain! I'm thinking about what I eat and serve. I'm thinking about what I say and feel. And I KNOW that without God I am nothing!!!!!
What a relief! To finally understand my place! I'm here on this planet to love, be loving, to share His love with others, to live in His love for me! I can be mindful, but don't have to figure everything out. I can rest spiritually in Him and know that everything will be great! God has given me a new perspective. I now can tell the difference between wants and needs.
I, like many of you, am on a very tight budget. And I haven't done that well with sticking with it here lately. But now that I am in a new state of mind, I realize that what I have been finding importance in, is really not that important! I see what I have! My needs and my families needs are met! I really don't need anything! And that may seem like I'm just going through this new Christian high, but I'm serious, I have everything! When you get to that point, life is peaceful. I feel like I can pursue all the things God has placed on my heart and not worry about if I'll get paid!
I realize now that parties are more then food traps! They are wonderful moments of laughs, sharing, stories, etc. Holidays are more than "Oh the food is so good, I have to have it!" "So and so is going to be way prettier and thinner than me and will talk about me behind my back!" It's so much more. Boy, I was really insecure! Those were my actual thought for a long time! Also, how selfish! To only think about "me!" I sure did miss a lot.
With God, I am whole! With God, there is no need to have one up on anyone. With God, there is no reason to hide, to feel inferior, to worry about what others think! With God, we are safe, satisfied, alive, living!
Yes Virginia! There is a better life out there and it starts and ends with God!
I now realize that losing weight and being healthy is more than the calories we eat, the exercises we do, the mistakes we make. It's about being really satisfied! Which can come from only one place ~ THANK YOU JESUS!
So I'm following the guidelines that I posted a few days ago. I'm making it simple. I'm going to be responsible. And you can too!
God loves us so much that He gave His only begotten Son so that we my have everlasting life! Man, I need to read that again!! He loves me, all my faults and thoughts and failures! He's looking at my future not my behind, I mean past!! He can see what I can't see, so I will trust Him and have faith!
Today is going to be a great day! Love yourself and let God's love fill you and flow through you to others!
Blessings to you my friends!
Becca
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Day 8
Good morning to my Brothers and Sisters in Christ!
Today is the day that the Good Lord has made! Let us rejoice!
At this point in my life, realizing that I have so much to learn, I have signed up for many daily messages via email and have become a member to many very insightful web sites. Joyce Meyers and Rick Warren are just a couple that have really good messages that can be sent to you or found on their sites, daily. I love getting up, putting the coffee on, exercising while excitingly waiting for the coffee to get done so I can check my email for wonderful messages and then log on to facebook for the "God's Message." Then, after I send my kids off to school, I fill my cup with coffee and add sugar and cream, and read the sweetness from the Good Book!
What am I getting at! Well, so far I have come to the conclusion, God's hand touching my life, that I need to slow down, that those moments to notice His beauty and wonders! I have realized that I need those quiet times alone with God to strengthen my inner self, to be seated in Christ. And then, I can have a victorious day! Not perfect, doing everything right, thou I try. But mindful of what God is doing, has done, and has promised to do in my life. That helps me to make better decisions and helps me to have a humble and merciful attitude.
I have also concluded that I am nothing with out God. I need the Word of God showered over me everyday, all day! Realizing that God is with me, watching over me, listening to the words I say and my inner most thoughts is scary. He KNOWS! I'm a baby Christian, still training my brain, my heart, my attitude, etc. I need the Word to help make those new habits and connections in my brain. Like I have said before, praying and making the right decisions will re-wire your brain! But you have to do it! You have to give up! Give up control over your life and let God do the navigating!
All aspects of life are coming together! The way I react to problems and conflicts. My attitude toward others and daily obligations. How I set my feelings aside, and focus on what God and Jesus would want me to do. It's all coming together! Not perfect, although it feels perfect! I guess that's what God will do for you!
Take time to read about God, to listen to what He has to tell you, and notice all that He has done for you already! Take time to notice how beautiful you are. Really, in the whole scheme of things, all our differences, all of our unique gifts, notice how beautiful you are. Realize that the Lord has a place for you and I. The world needs us to step into those places and do our jobs.
Today, put aside your feelings of "my butt's to big, I have nothing to wear, what will I eat, when will I exercise. . . . . " Come on, isn't your life more important than your external? Mine is! Yes, be healthy! And do it because God wants you to be healthy! Not for the size of your pants or how many miles you can run. Yes, that is a great motivator. But because you are in it for the long run, the race of your life.
Have a great day! Enjoy it! And do the very best that you can!
Blessings ~ Becca
Today is the day that the Good Lord has made! Let us rejoice!
At this point in my life, realizing that I have so much to learn, I have signed up for many daily messages via email and have become a member to many very insightful web sites. Joyce Meyers and Rick Warren are just a couple that have really good messages that can be sent to you or found on their sites, daily. I love getting up, putting the coffee on, exercising while excitingly waiting for the coffee to get done so I can check my email for wonderful messages and then log on to facebook for the "God's Message." Then, after I send my kids off to school, I fill my cup with coffee and add sugar and cream, and read the sweetness from the Good Book!
What am I getting at! Well, so far I have come to the conclusion, God's hand touching my life, that I need to slow down, that those moments to notice His beauty and wonders! I have realized that I need those quiet times alone with God to strengthen my inner self, to be seated in Christ. And then, I can have a victorious day! Not perfect, doing everything right, thou I try. But mindful of what God is doing, has done, and has promised to do in my life. That helps me to make better decisions and helps me to have a humble and merciful attitude.
I have also concluded that I am nothing with out God. I need the Word of God showered over me everyday, all day! Realizing that God is with me, watching over me, listening to the words I say and my inner most thoughts is scary. He KNOWS! I'm a baby Christian, still training my brain, my heart, my attitude, etc. I need the Word to help make those new habits and connections in my brain. Like I have said before, praying and making the right decisions will re-wire your brain! But you have to do it! You have to give up! Give up control over your life and let God do the navigating!
All aspects of life are coming together! The way I react to problems and conflicts. My attitude toward others and daily obligations. How I set my feelings aside, and focus on what God and Jesus would want me to do. It's all coming together! Not perfect, although it feels perfect! I guess that's what God will do for you!
Take time to read about God, to listen to what He has to tell you, and notice all that He has done for you already! Take time to notice how beautiful you are. Really, in the whole scheme of things, all our differences, all of our unique gifts, notice how beautiful you are. Realize that the Lord has a place for you and I. The world needs us to step into those places and do our jobs.
Today, put aside your feelings of "my butt's to big, I have nothing to wear, what will I eat, when will I exercise. . . . . " Come on, isn't your life more important than your external? Mine is! Yes, be healthy! And do it because God wants you to be healthy! Not for the size of your pants or how many miles you can run. Yes, that is a great motivator. But because you are in it for the long run, the race of your life.
Have a great day! Enjoy it! And do the very best that you can!
Blessings ~ Becca
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